Rantemon

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rantemon — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 09:46:20 +0000

You’re stuck in a phase where you only know who to look for when you’re bored, lonely or just have nothing else to do. What do I do? I try my very best to entertain you but you decided not to talk after that. I don’t understand. Why the fuck are you doing this to me? If you want to talk, I’ll be more than happy to talk. I can’t do anything if you just want to ignore me or just end this friendship. I still ca-

It’s been almost a week now.. Lets see what happens.

Nothing seems to make sense anymore..

rantemon — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 11:25:01 +0000

I don’t know what to do, I pretty much did well in the 1st term of my course but don’t feel that there’s an urge to celebrate. Part of me just says that its not worth celebrating. Not worth continuing on. Haiz.

I can never be satisfied with what I do. Putting so much effort just for something or someone that might turn you down.

I don’t want hurt, I don’t want pain. But I still fall back to the same old feelings. Heart jumping a beat? Yes, it still does.

When will I ever learn?

Where has my faith gone?

youknowmyname.and.iknowyours.

Mixed feelings..

rantemon — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 15:02:05 +0000

Hate it? Love it? Whatever. I need to get a grip of what I really want. I can’t have everything.

Yesterday was pretty much an exhausting day. Went to L2 with Low and Zheng. Printed all my notes and past papers. Yes, past papers and it was just the end of the first week. Got loads to do, but I’m still slacking away. Wow-ed for a bit, well 6-7 hours. LOL

Had a can of Fosters all to myself while watching 2012. Was pretty much an OK film only la. Funny part was when they wanted to start the Bently but it needed voice recognition. LOL.. zzz

Anyways, I hate my thoughts right about now. I don’t know what to do them. Either to move on, or just go with the flow. I need to pull through.

x zac

Oh,oh, oopa!

rantemon — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 22:31:17 +0000

Hart

rantemon — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 01:11:36 +0000

You’re young, wild and confused. You fell in love. You get heartbroken trying too hard. And now you’re back on your feet trying to live life as if nothing has ever happened. Relapsed. And now, what’s this?

Love’s messed up. Sometimes it never makes sense. Haiz.

Thank goodness for WoW, for now.

Level 21 baby!

These feelings won’t rub off, ever.

x zac

you know…

rantemon — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 08:22:13 +0000

… what’s demeaning is loving a person who thinks so little of you.

I love this statement.

ANYWAYS…

The only keys that I’ve been using the past 2 days are. The ‘Tab’, the row of numbers and F1-F8. The reason for this lies after this cut.

This was the beginning of something randomly new. WoW.

It was rather boring the first few times since I kept dying. Sort of got the hang of it after a while. Am still thinking whether I should subscribe. I might actually subscribe

Anyways, lectures started yesterday. 9-1pm. Full of head bumping information that just didn’t know what to do. Was pretty much intimidated by the first years in Engineering Thermodynamics. I was just amazed by the unending interactions between them and the lecturer. Just sat back and relaxed for a bit. Lol.

Hmm.. This was such an inappropriate post. Will somehow find a way to make things more interesting

Your ignorance maybe bliss.. and I hate it, alot.

x zac

Why are you breaking my heart again..?

rantemon — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 11:42:54 +0000

..when all we ever do is say goodbye..

I <3 John Mayer’s songs…

I’m disappointed. In efforts for a little sense of appreciation in life, I’m pretty much disappointed. In efforts not to rub things in my face. I’m disappointed.

My skills aren’t perfect, but still I’m trying. It was just the first time and obviously no one gets it right the first time. Nobody’s perfect.

Some people just deserve to be avoided once in a while.

I’ll go somewhere else where my doings are more appreciated.

Thanks. Bye.

x zac

Procrastination’s a bitch..

rantemon — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 19:52:45 +0000

Strawberry puree, anyone?

1 more day to ease off the pain

Haven’t touched this module yet. The answers are somewhat set, just that I need to remember it and add more points to it. Yeah.. I should give it a go after 1 CSI NY… Mmm…

Anyways, like I said, I would be baking a cake today. I did. Something similar to what I wanted.

Strawberry and Cream Cake! Woots

Hopefully it tastes alright It’s still sitting in my fridge waiting to be eaten. Heh.

x zac

Things are gonna change.

rantemon — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 23:24:05 +0000

This would be a challenge for me and with hope it will be implemented for term 2 as well as the final year. I realised that consistency is key towards achieving your goals. Studying last minute and hoping to remember all sorts of essays won’t do.

This will change and hopefully its for the better.

Early mornings – Getting up at 7am on a daily basis. No more wasting time snoozing in bed, however its what I sort of like doing best. I’m the king of snoozing when it comes to getting up ‘early’. I end up getting up 20 to 30mins after the actual alarm time.
Church – A must. I’m still a bit lost, I need to find myself again. If love knocks you down, you are better off with your faith in tact. At least there’s place to fall back on and reflect on whatever that has happened. Will either be going to the Trent Building one or St. Barnabas in the city. All the more reasons to have dinner or early breakfast. Ash, I’m dragging you with me
Nerd fest – I really can’t afford to fuck up 2nd term as I have in term 1. Well, I’m pretty upset with the quality of my coursework and am willing to go the extra mile to get a good grade. I don’t want to just PASS. I want to get a good grade. It’s no longer first year of uni where nothing much counts towards the final grade. I need to work hard for my future. I will get my head around all the examples and ASK. YES ASK, I want to not rely on my friends and bug them with work. Tak nak!
Stay healthy. Just like my resolution. I feel like I’ve been losing a bit of weight lately since the exams and the depression. Gonna head back to the gym and tone up I can’t wait!

Which reminds me, I’m gona try make the following. Someday and somehow. Will post photos up once I go pro

Macaroons
Fresh cream fruit cake

Any other suggestions? I’ve only got these two in mind for the time being. More to come! And yes, not only girls bake. I’ll pwn you with my anzac cookies if you diss *grin*. At least I know how to please them girls with my skills~

x zac

6 papers….

rantemon — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 23:47:44 +0000

6 papers really enraged the monster in me. I got emotional, depressed, suicidal and a bit cuckoo with my friendship with the people who I care about.

It’s almost done, just need to be consistent with the last 2 papers.

I’m in need of a holiday. Holiday? Anyone?

Can’t wait to watch movies at home and bake or other stuff. I can’t wait for Sofie to come over to make me rendang *droolz*

Almost there!

x zac